Today is September 3rd....Bianca's due date. I remember how anxious I was to meet her and to hold her in my arms. Even though it is so much better having her out than in, it reminds me that my womb is very much empty right now. And it makes me a bit sad.
I wish that Harry wasn't so financially conscious. I wish that Aunt Dot would be willing to watch another baby or that daycare wasn't so expensive. I wish that we weren't in so much debt that I have no choice but to work. Because even though my biological clock is tickly quite loudly, in our current circumstances, we can't even consider getting pregnant right now. And that thought honestly has me wanting to curl up in a little ball and cry.