This Made Me Smile

One of my coworkers sent me the following message this week. Friends are wonderful, aren't they?

THE TRUMPET by Bill Burns -- May 24, 2010:
It's time for the desert warriors to go through the battle. It's time for the white warriors to arise. It's time for the mighty men of this season to come forth in the power of the Most High. It's time to run to the battle and defeat the enemy at the gate. No longer establish yourself in a position of defeat, but dream the dreams of victory. Run the race until it is fulfilled. Receive the armor that I will give you; rise up until you indeed become the lions of the Most High and understand who you are in Christ. You are more than a conqueror, and I will cause you to always triumph in the war that you are involved in. Choose to take the trail of victory that I have provided for you and do not stop on the way. Do not allow the enemy to deter you nor allow the voice of condemnation to affect you, but rather receive the enlightenment of that which I have spoken to you, says the Lord.

I love you Carey! Learn all you can where you are. God is getting ready to take you to higher heights!

Wishcasting

I'm not sure on which date, but Jamie asked the question: Large or small, financial or otherwise, what do you wish to invest in?

~ My children
~ My marriage
~ My health - physical, mental, and spiritual
~ Beauty
~ Circle's End
~ Massage School
~ A convertible
~ A BMW for Harry
~ A beach cottage

Hungry

I eat breakfast every morning. 99% of the time, I eat a bowl of cereal. This morning was no different. But for some reason, I am finding myself very hungry today. I am craving eggs with cheese, bacon, home fries, and a biscuit, all rinsed down with a nice cup of mocha. Mmmm. These are the days I wish I still worked at St. Joe's. Then I could walk to the cafeteria and indulge in that yummy breakfast. Oh well. Only two more hours until lunch.....

On a side note...

I realized today how much I love the sound the keyboard makes when I type. I love the rhythm of the keys. I love the tapping. I love the way that even when my fingers make mistakes, my ears only hear a song.

Yes, I definitely prefer handwriting over typing. There is something so lovely and intimate and real about the handwritten word.

But there is something magical about the sound of typing that I can't quite explain!

Feeling Better

This morning when I woke up, something amazing happened: I felt good. I didn't have a headache. I didn't have a stomachache. I didn't feel tired. I felt refreshed and ready to start my day. I must have had a wonderful sleep. Now I just have to figure out how to keep having them!

I've had a pretty good day so far. My supervisor and my boss are both at an off-site meeting today, so I have more time for focusing on me. I watched a wonderful short video of Elizabeth Gilbert. In it, she said that we all want to live our best possible lives. We all want to aim high - and we should. But there will be times when we fall. There will be times when we disappoint ourselves. But all we can do is get back up, brush ourselves off, and keep going.

She also mentioned that she loves Martha Beck. Martha said that in all of her travels throughout her lifetime, she has come to know that there are four types of women:

1) Women who chose career over family and are conflicted about it.
2) Women who chose family over career and are conflicted about it.
3) Women who chose both family and career and are conflicted about it.
4) The Mystics. The Mystics are those who hear and heed a deep inner voice and follow it wherever it takes them. They are at peace on their journey.

Oh how I wish I could be a Mystic! I want to choose both my family and my holistic health career and give everything I possibly can to both. I want to follow my inner voice wherever it leads me and be at peace knowing that I took a leap of faith and I'm doing the best that I possibly can with the body and the circumstances I have been given.

Depression

This morning I woke up with a slight headache and a terrible stomachache. My belly has been hurting me since Thursday. My mom recommended I take a laxative to help ease the pain, but I'm glad I didn't have any in the house. While I was in the shower this morning, I felt like I needed to pass gas. Instead, my bowels emptied on the shower floor. It was totally disgusting and embarrassing. I contemplated calling out of work, but as I am in the office instead of in my bed right now, the idea didn't last long. My stomach is still upset, but I'm feeling slightly better than I did this morning.

HSA testing starts today, and since Harry is the testing coordinator for his school, he had to go in early. I dropped Bianca off at Aunt Dot's, and she asked me if I was ok. She said that I haven't been like myself lately. I wanted to cry right then and there, but my only response was "I haven't been feeling well lately. But I think it's more mental than anything." This came after my mom said to me yesterday, "I didn't realize how sad you are." And one of my co-workers asked me if I thought I was suffering from Postpartum Depression.

I thought about it seriously this morning, and I don't think I have PPD. Doesn't it usually show up pretty soon after giving birth? Bianca is 8 months old. I have only been feeling a bit down for the past few weeks. I don't think it would have come on me so late in the game.

But I do think I may be suffering from some sort of depression. I just feel very dark and empty. And sad. And tired. And sick. I want to feel better already!

Inspiring Quote

I was just on Twitter, and I saw an inspiring tweet from Ed Young: "Remember the cycle of success: change, conflict, growth. Don't bail out right before the breakthrough!"